Forever black

At first, pure then turned to black that is how my life goes. Pain and hate filled my heart as trauma came to my life. I see my life passing by, the life I can't stop. I want to make a pause and think alone some time. I want a break from life so do I want to die? We are just puppets hanging from strings of pain and regret. Who is controling us? I lie to myself to keep being alive because i am scared of death. I don't want to give my last breath just yet... My soul burns, my heart aches...I can't help but cry...I cry only on the inside, alone.... I don't want to be pittied nor do I need your mercy I just need a world for me, a world forever black.... Written by Crossberry June